For 7 days I’ll do an experiment and write a few lines every day here.
I do this for myself, but I’m sure it will be useful for you too. Thanks a lot for accompanying me… 🙂
Moment 0 is for me the one I align myself with my understanding of what I want and who I am:
“Well, this is the situation, neither good nor bad, and from now on I want to do this …” By this I mean about every action I take to achieve what I want and to become who I want to be. The present is a reality of the actual state of things, which at times can only be an appearance.
Day 4 here
My first working day on my own
For more than half a year I had an office job, and besides the professional work I did there, in ”the dead times” I dreamed and I was planning with my eyes wide open about how I would fulfil my dream.
I knew I would quit the job as soon as possible, and all I wanted was to create my own website and start a new life. I had no security, and neither my material nor my financial reserves were extraordinary. But those who know me know that I write my dream on paper and then simply do it.
Well, here, including giving up some less important things, so some sacrifice. And of course, I mean only the dreams that depend on myself only.
On the planned day, I resigned from that job.
It was a great joy, but a huge assumption too.
I didn’t tell of my plans to those around me, even to my family, because with their best intentions, they could block me from the trajectory of my dream:
”Oh, my dear, do not you have a job, a safety-net?!”
But the only SURE thing about an unsatisfactory job is the SAFETY that if you don’t make a change you will still have exactly that same unsatisfactory job…
In relationships it is the same, obviously.
I did not even tell to my family the day I resigned, and the next day I went ‘to the job’ as usual…
The job, this time, was at the apartment of a friend who had given me the key and told me that I could go there anytime, to quietly work. She understood that I needed a week, or even a month of silence and space, to come up with the latest details. I told her that it would help me to go out of my environment, I had the vision, but I still could not see the forest from the trees.
So the next day at 08.00 in the morning, I was at my friend’s house with the thought that I would start to work. I wanted to edit photos and promote my services, among other things. It was just my first day as a freelancer, so I had to act.
I tried very hard to concentrate for an hour or two, but something was wrong and it gave me a headache…
Because I could not decide on what was priority at that moment, I thought it would not be bad to take a moment on the couch to get rid of my pain… The apartment was great and I was wondering if I would have one in the future?
I kindly asked my subconscious to release my mind of concern and show me with clarity the way I had to follow. I was stretched out on the couch, the blinds pulled closed but the window open – I love to hear the background noise when it’s warm outside – and I got into the story:
”It was just as warm and sunny, and I was dressed in an elegant day dress and walked on the shore of a lake.
I was right on the edge of it, where the water with the yellow ground joined. I was walking in line, to the left was an endless field of white flowers with a high stem almost like me and with small leaves.
I was in a paradise, it was the sensation, and I was on the edge of the water without any hurry. One step away from me, to the left were the flowers, one step to the right was the flashing water in which the sun shone brightly… I was in a bohemian walk and pure joy …
At some point, a kind of clay mound rose to my left, forming a small cove that blocked my path… I stopped for a second and noticed that the water was deep at once, but very clear. It was a vibrant turquoise in which the gold of the clay was reflected, and the raging sun made me think that I had a vision… Or could it be heaven, what was it that showed to me?
I was very clear about what I had to do, I wanted and could not wait to do it … I offered myself to the experience and, while exploring with the same curiosity and joy as before, I threw myself into the water. In the colourful and invigorating belly of her depth, naturally, I felt communion altogether, abandonment…”
I came back easily from the reverie, and realised what my subconscious was telling me: that is, let go of the mind and go into the soul.
Allow me to be and to manifest myself as I feel, in full agreement with myself and the whole universe. To blend with everything that is, without limits and, above all, without fear. Allow me to be in everything, in all fields and in all aspects of my life. Give me total and always live in what it is, and everything I need will come to me.
DAY 1 here
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